Thank You, It’s Worthy.

We built a strong relationship before
We became a sweet lovers since then
We faced all trials together
I remember your laughter and your
hand that fist throughly my hand
Your voice that whispers “I love you”
on my ear
The one who sings “Forevermore” for me
I remember your warm hugs and kisses
The sweet smile that brightens my day
I miss all those things..
And I miss you.

You.. Who made me realize that this
happiness can’t be forever..
You.. Who made me realize that you
came just to make me fall for a while.

But I should thank you.
Thank you for letting me cry
without a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you, it’s all worthy.


First Day Result

This day is much prettier than yesterday, at least. I woke up 8 am but I made a productive day– I clean the house, wash the plates, help grandma in her little sari-sari store, I’ve finished reading one whole magazine, and the most beautiful thing I made this day is making snack, I know it was cheap to be proud of but I’m really proud of myself that I made it, this is the mayo with boiled egg sandwich spread. haha! First, I boiled an egg with a boiling water then after peeling the egg, I sliced it to a tiny pieces. I just wanted to congratulate myself for cooking the egg well, not over-cooked and not half-cooked, it is because there is no part in the egg yolk that has a little color green on the outer side of it. Have you experienced boiling egg that has a little cor green on the side? Well, they said that it causes cancer, that was I heard. By the way, after slicing, I mixed it with the accurate amount af mayonnaise. 1:1 is the right  measurement. After mixing, you can already eat this with the sliced loaf bread. Most of the people wanted it with crushed onion but me, and my family preffered it without. That’s all I can share today. 🙂

The Feeling of Being Useless

Kriiing! Kriing!! Alarm clock noise cut my wonderful dream, it’s already 6 am and it’s time to wake up, but wait! I feel my head heavier than my body as I trying to get out of my bed. My head said “I still want to sleep” against my body says “I want to stand up!”. Feeling the softness of my pillow and the refreshing smell of my blanket plus remembering that no
class leads me to stop the annoying sound of the alarm clock and come back to my dreamland. As I opened my eyes, the glaze light of the sun piercing through the curtain and reminds me that it was late morning already. First thing I saw is my little cute wall clock telling me that it was 9 o’ clock already, here I go again. Taking breakfast, hotdog with unlimited cups of rice, CARBOHYDRATES! But I love rice, it seems that I cannot eat completely without the presence of the tempting rice. I can already feel my baby fats getting bigger day by day. After, watch tv for a while, play plants vs. zombies and wait for the clock to reach the 12 o’ clock so we eat again. Then, do the same thing again. This is one of the disadvantage of the vacation for me, It makes me lazy. I hate being idle but it’s like that you hate it but you love it too, did you get my point? The reason why I set an alarm at 6am is to wake me up early, take some exercise, prepare nutritious food, take a bath early in the morning and make the day productive
like helping on house chores, reading books so I can learn and write more and so whatever that can make my life happier. On this situation, I don’t really find myself challenging. Nowadays, I can’t sleep early, I often sleep for about 1 to 2 am in the morning, I don’t have exercise, I’m stock already! I feel really useless in this house.
My grandma is telling me that I might sleep during class hour because I always feel dizzy. Now, I want to fix all this mess I brought into my life. Starting tomorrow, I’ll wake up early, wash the clothes, clean the house , make some exercise and abate the amount of rice intake. I’ll try also to read some magazines to gain knowledge and try not to sleep in the afternoon. Well, im just typing now on my notepad  because we lose internet access for some few days. I’ll just post it and the result when the net comes back. Sorry for the wrong grammar 🙂

Hindi Maturuan Ang Puso (tagalog)

Bakit ba pag mahal mo ayaw sayo? Yung mahal ka naman ay ayaw mo. Bakit ba ganon? Bakit kailangan ng taong magdusa para mahalin lang sila ng taong mahal nila eh andyan naman
yung nagmamahal sayo na kayang gawin lahat para lang din mahalin mo. Hay pag ibig nga naman sa mundo, sinasadya ba ng kupido na tamaan ka sa taong di ka naman pala kayang
mahalin? Sa lahat-lahat ba naman ng pwedeng mahalin ay siya pa! Iresponsable, sinungaling, manloloko at lahat-lahat na, pero bakit siya pa rin ang laman ng puso ko? Bakit hindi ko
sya magawang kalimutan? Ano bang meron siya at sadyang mahal na mahal ko siya? Dami diyan nagpaparamdam, ginagawa ang lahat ng gusto ko pero tila di ko naman nararamdaman,
di ko naman pinapansin, mahal na mahal nga ako pero ayaw ko naman, responsable, mabait, masipag at mapagkakatiwalaan ngunit hindi ko naman mahal. Minsan sinasabi ko sa
sarili ko na pwede bang siya na lang? Pero sadya nga talagang bingi ang puso, manhid pa! Bugbog na nga sa sakit pero nagmamahal pa rin. Whahaha!
Minsan gusto kong untugin ang ulo ko sa pader dahil sa sobrang katangahan, pero may magbabago ba? Niloko na ko, pinaiyakan ng ilang beses, sinisigawan pa paminsan, pero mahal ko
pa rin, walang nagbago. Nahihirapan na nga, pagod na pagod na, pero bakit? ang puso ko di napapagod? Hanggang kailan ba ito? Pakiusap naman! Hindi ka ba talaga maturuan?
Mas pipiiliin ko na lang ang intindihin ang matematika kasi mas mabuti yon may explanasyon pa, eh ikaw? ang hirap na ngang intindihin, wala pang explanasyon. Sana mamatay ka na,
yun bang wag ka na lang magmahal ng lalake, hirap na hirap na ko sayo eh. Di ko na alm ang gagawin ko sayo! Umaasa na lang na balang araw mapapagod ka na rin pero hindi ko rin alam kung
kailan ;(