The Feeling of Being Useless

Kriiing! Kriing!! Alarm clock noise cut my wonderful dream, it’s already 6 am and it’s time to wake up, but wait! I feel my head heavier than my body as I trying to get out of my bed. My head said “I still want to sleep” against my body says “I want to stand up!”. Feeling the softness of my pillow and the refreshing smell of my blanket plus remembering that no
class leads me to stop the annoying sound of the alarm clock and come back to my dreamland. As I opened my eyes, the glaze light of the sun piercing through the curtain and reminds me that it was late morning already. First thing I saw is my little cute wall clock telling me that it was 9 o’ clock already, here I go again. Taking breakfast, hotdog with unlimited cups of rice, CARBOHYDRATES! But I love rice, it seems that I cannot eat completely without the presence of the tempting rice. I can already feel my baby fats getting bigger day by day. After, watch tv for a while, play plants vs. zombies and wait for the clock to reach the 12 o’ clock so we eat again. Then, do the same thing again. This is one of the disadvantage of the vacation for me, It makes me lazy. I hate being idle but it’s like that you hate it but you love it too, did you get my point? The reason why I set an alarm at 6am is to wake me up early, take some exercise, prepare nutritious food, take a bath early in the morning and make the day productive
like helping on house chores, reading books so I can learn and write more and so whatever that can make my life happier. On this situation, I don’t really find myself challenging. Nowadays, I can’t sleep early, I often sleep for about 1 to 2 am in the morning, I don’t have exercise, I’m stock already! I feel really useless in this house.
My grandma is telling me that I might sleep during class hour because I always feel dizzy. Now, I want to fix all this mess I brought into my life. Starting tomorrow, I’ll wake up early, wash the clothes, clean the house , make some exercise and abate the amount of rice intake. I’ll try also to read some magazines to gain knowledge and try not to sleep in the afternoon. Well, im just typing now on my notepad  because we lose internet access for some few days. I’ll just post it and the result when the net comes back. Sorry for the wrong grammar 🙂


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